I have been having a lot of trouble with conversations with men. I guess I'm just not ready for all of what I'm getting. First I had 3 bad experiences with men who said they were something they weren't (thankfully not here) and basically were in foreign countries looking for an American woman to marry. Nothing like having someone professing undying love for you after a 15 minute conversation. So three times I had to block people on my instant messenger and email.
Recently someone just started talking to me and was asking about "pictures" and the way he was hinting around left me little doubt what type of pictures he wanted. Then someone else saw a posting I had about a topic regarding sexuality (Catholic site) and wanted to know if we could be "friends" and talk about our "experiences" but he said what he meant (trying to edit it here on the forum).
Today someone from a Catholic forum wants to be "friends" and wants to see pictures, and talk incessantly. I had to cut him off because I was done at work and had to get to the church to help set up for our dinner tomorrow night and also meet with the Deacon about my anullment. When I got home there he was on my instant messenger asking me if I spent the "time we were apart" thinking about him. How do I say, "No actually I was quite busy setting up tables, china, silverware and meeting with the Deacon". He's sort of angry I'm being slow about talking to him. I get a good sense of people and I'm cautious. This is the internet after all and I don't understand someone who says he has a job who is online for hours and hours. The job he says he has would not allow this much internet time. He got upset when there were long pauses in our chat today. I was WORKING. I said this several times.
Maybe ths is just too soon, maybe I just don't see the point in "diving in" with someone. I want to make some male friends and socialize, get used to being single out in the dating world. I really don't want to "fall in love" in 15 minutes online. Maybe I just don't have the energy for this, which makes me feel very sad. If I don't have the energy for this, then how do I expect to meet someone? I just don't know.
Anyone else felt like this? I'm totally unsure...I just don't know HOW to date and "be single". I'm confused.