(Quote) Theresa-722703 said: I will probably delete my profile in December when it comes due. Some guys actually say in their profi...
(Quote) Theresa-722703 said: I will probably delete my profile in December when it comes due. Some guys actually say in their profile that they don't want kids at home. I can respect that. I used to feel that way until I got pregnant at the age of forty. there are less men out there the older I get and then I have my little girl. I think that I probably won't date until she is a lot older but then I might decide that I don't want a guy around telling me what to do! I do have to say that my first marriage was almost ideal. I recently told someone that if i could have him back I think I would do it. Just him, I wouldn't ask for the money, I wouldn't ask for the house, the cars, all the physical trappings. Just him. We could start over and it would be fine with me. But as my mom would say, If wishes were horses, beggars would ride. Since he passed away, I have moved on. I think I made my point. Now I have my daughter and she will be the center of my life for now.
Theresa, It is hard to live the life we have, especially when we have lost what seems was the better life. You are intelligent and articulate. You know what you want, what you have, what is important as well as the common sense to seek out what is good for you and your daughter. I raised my son by myself through no plan of my own. Today at 63 I am still single. It is a constant exercise in acceptance, and truly a deepinging of my reliance on God. I too was disappointed to find such a lack of response from this site and was glad to be able to discuss it here in the coffee shop on Sunday mornings. I was done with CM. It has taken time but I still come here, not as much for the dating, even though I keep my toe in the pool, but for the sense of well being and normalcy I feel because I am not alone. I am not alone in my struggles as a catholic woman. I am not alone as a single senior, l am not alone in my aloness. It doesn't sound like much and last year at this time it would not have called it a richness. Probably because I have grown in acceptance. I could say that is all I need, but to grasp that as a continuum probably requires the same type of discipline as an aged marriage. So today my trust in God grows, even as my life continues outside of my prefernces. I live in an area that was geographically isolated too and was in no situation to move. Now some things have changed, including me, but the older I get the fewer prospects appear. Having said that, I believe that once you do your best, the rest is up to God. The same God that brought you two husbands is the same God that will open the door to your next resolution. Now I am not saying, you shouldn't pack it up, pick it up and move to a place you believe God has planned for you, but when I did that, due to the terrible repercussions on my son, I wish I had not. I said that to say that as we age, the lessons become harder and the resolution seems to take longer. I don't always like the way God manages my life but still it is better then the options. So my slogan is: Acceptance is the answer to all my problems today.