I liked what you had to say about making friends with yourself. That's so true.
I really can't go out and do...things....groups and such because I work a rotating schedule. Each month I have different days off and work a different set of hours. So, college courses, church groups....I'm pretty much knocked out of being able to attend.
I, also have virtually nothing in common with the people I work with, so socializing with them out of work is pretty much shot as well.
I do read (buying a Kindle was the best present I gave myself), study my lessons, and write. i write a lot! :)
I also sleep with a pillow and stuffed animals. They don't hog the bed or steal the covers.......:)
It takes some time to really get used to living alone after having shared a home with someone for a long time. I didn't have the challenges that you are struggling with, perhaps because in many ways my marriage was over long before we seperated. I was even a little worried at one point because I never thought about him after we split up. I still don't.
I still had to adjust to living alone though. I hardly ever eat at my dining room table...it's just too lonesome after all the years raising the kids, when we all sat down to dinner together. I sit on my couch and eat dinner, usually every night. You kinda have to make friends with yourself, because you spend so much time with yourself. You finally now, have the chance to do what you want to do. Resurrect an old hobby, I started doing needlework again and that keeps my hands busy. If I would be brooding or sad, I made myself get up and clean something. When your hands are busy, your mind is focused and soon you forget whats bugging you. Maybe if you took morning walks or afternoon walks.. that would help to allieviate the sluggishness that you are feeling. Excercise makes me feel better when I am blue. Reading is excellent for taking your mind off of everything, and when you put the book down, your mind is refresed and you are no longer thinking about sad stuff.
Oh, the arm hitting the empty bed! Yeah, that's rough. Try hugging a pillow when you drift off...I've heard that this works. Good Luck Lorrie!
I'm sorry that you are suffering.