I've been going through a tough time, guys. The holidays are especially hard this year. Having been separated since 2008, divorced since 2011, and annulled just last summer, I still feel raw and I can't quite figure it out tonight. Things have been bad for so long, I thought I had just accepted it and made the sacrificial offering. I forgive my ex, but the reality of what happened doesn't cease to exist. He was unfaithful, he was abusive towards me, and somehow I find myself exiled and living in my father's house. Moving on, when the children are with him most of the time, is especially painful right now. My normally sanguine self is bogging down as grief comes in waves.
So here's an effort to go beyond the pity party I would very easily set up for myself. I know everyone here has experienced the collapse of their marriage and that it has affected each of you in different ways - emotionally, spiritually, physically, financially. There is so much we want to change, but can't. We can. however, turn all things over to Our Heavenly Father. In Advent, we read about promises made and kept. God is a loving Father who always keeps His promises. We will never be abandoned. My children will never be orphaned.
Please join me in this prayer:
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.