John- You should not give up. All of us should hold on to hope.
Marian, It's kind of hard to hold onto to hope when one comes into the threads daily and reads all the disparaging remarks made by the men and women on here.
I am by nature a VERY positive and upbeat person, but I see this trait waining daily after visiting the various negative threads/comments.
I see negativity here too and we have to remain resolved in our selves not to be led toward losing hope. CM should be a place where we gain hope. Where we have fellowship. Not where we feel torn down. People who write negative posts which are DOWNER POSTS should be dealt with.