thanks everyone for responding!
I just feel sometimes that I'm trying so hard to just be myself cause everyone tells me to! Sometimes I feel that's not good enough, especially trying to date locally. I just feel like it's doesn't matter.
Hang in there, Patrick. I've been here since July, and I'm still here. If anything, make some friends here in the fora. You never know, your perfect girl might be here and just hasn't seen your profile yet.