Prayers needed. Ex is saber-rattling. He wanted everything, got everything, and it seems, after a couple of years trying to manage a large household, is finding it too difficult. He wants me to take the kids more (I would love to) but won't help with child support (in fact, wants me to pay him - I work part time while he has a thriving career - makes sense). I wonder, if parenting and child support can be adjusted, I might finally be able to leave this partial exile from my children and actually live with them again.
But then, I've already seen a lot of injustice. The pure cost of a post-decree motion could destroy his finances, and what little I have, will be gone. I hate the court system.
I'm trying to engage him in some kind of discussion to address his grievances, but he won't respond to a phone massage or email. The threatened me with court on Friday when I picked up the kids and I had a severe panic attack Friday night and beginning of Saturday - couldn't sleep because I kept dreaming about different scenarios. I think, at this point, I've given up - God will do what He will do.