(Quote) Susan-940526 said:
Thanks for all the great posts. I hope I don't repeat to much but I will share my experience....
(Quote) Susan-940526 said:
Thanks for all the great posts. I hope I don't repeat to much but I will share my experience.
My Agnosticism stems from my hypersensitivity. I feel wounded so often by the news, current event and t he world we live in in general. Many people turn towards God in these times. For me and my sensitivities, I constantly questioned "where is God?"
I've worked in human and veterinary medicine and have seen some terrible things. Abused children and pets. Heartbreaking. I can see how one could disbelieve after years of exposure to this. I had to leave the field for awhile. And now I'm finding my w ay back to God. I hope I can one day be as learned and devout as so many of you here. And go back into my field. And bring God with me!
I do hope that in the meantime people would be patient and kind to those who struggle with faith.
This is pretty much where I am, Susan. Something that might help you: a priest recently suggested I read the story of the raising of Lazarus. I read the entire thing (John chapter 9, I believe). It got to the heart of this question, I think, because Mary and Martha tell Christ, "Sir, if you had been here, my brother would not have died." This is the same as saying, "Where were you??" And then Christ goes to the tomb and weeps openly with them. It hit me then that Christ grieves with us in every suffering that happens.
I guess you could look at the situation and say: see! He knows what's going on and how painful it is and He still lets it happen! But last Saturday when I read this passage, I felt like Christ was weeping with me in everything I've suffered. It made me wonder if God somehow would prevent these evils if He could, but cannot because His Will will bring something greater out of it and He cannot go against His own Will.
It's really, really hard to accept, I know. I feel like the pain of things that have happend to me are a mountain standing between God and I which I must climb over before I can be with Him again.
I can't imagaine standing by and watching someone suffer without helping them as I feel God does sometimes. But God is not us. For reasons unknown to us, I believe that He cannot step in. But, by weeping with Mary and Martha over the death of their brother and dying on the Cross for us, I think He's saying that He cannot prevent all suffering, but He will enter into the suffering with us. For some reason, that gave me a lot of comfort.
I hope God brings you closer to Him soon and that you experience joy in contemplating Him once again.