Hi Liz and
My condolences on the passing of your husband. I lost my husband after a 15 month battle to brain cancer. For me, it's been over 14 years, now, but the weeks just preceding that anniversary date are always quite somber and poignant. My kids are out on their own, and I've had my share of lonely times and empty nesting the past few years. I retired from teaching in June to help care for my folks, and now the "downtime" has really become apparent. I try to keep busy with yard work, volunteer activities, and "gal-pal" events. I, too, enjoy traveling, but within the first year after my husband's death, it was obvious that travel with the group of couples friends we'd had was uncomfortable for me, and for them at times, too. I still venture out, but have found that another one or two single women make great companions for adventures. I have also gone to 3 CM Events, and enjoyed meeting and making new friends (both women and men), who can be wonderful travel pals.
Take time to adjust to this new station in life--I didn't really even come out of the numbness for a couple of years, and just mechanically went through events for awhile. Eventually it gets better. Don't rush to be back "out there". Yeah, time is passing by....I remember thinking at your age that I'd better hurry up and find another mate before I was too old and not interesting or attractive enough to meet a quality man...
Believe me, there are many ways to engage yourself: volunteering at schools, church, community centers, animal shelters, rehab centers, natural preserves, etc. There are many activities like taking lessons: dance, yoga, martial arts, cooking, weaving, organic flower/vegies, chorus, history, auto mechanics, home improvement, bird hikes . You can join travel groups: thematic travel, mission work, chaperone for high school D.C. trips, Outward Bound. Many of these things are free, and don't require you to "sign your life away on a dotted line" forever!
Glad to see you are posting in the Forum! Make friends here and at home, and look for the beauty in all the world around you on your journey to Heaven!