I will pray for you. I think we all question the faith at one time or another, at least I have fleeting moments from time to time. That is the devil trying to take us away.
Please continue to give the Catholic faith a chance. Continue to learn about the faith and read the bible. And continue to receive Jesus in the eucharist and ask for faith and guidance.
God bless you Swaroop.
I will pray for you. But, I want you to think on something for a bit. All of us, in all faiths have barren times, when we seem to be unable to find solace or comfort or purpose. When life itself seems so difficult and wrought with troubles that there seems to be little purpose in any of it but misery and emptiness. Our Lord also went through such periods of emptiness and wondering. The Forty Days in the desert was a time of great temptation to Our Lord. The Agony in the garden another and even upon the Cross, He cries out asking why God had forsaken him.
These times come to us all and it is in those barren times in keeping the faith and mustering through that we get to the other side and often in that barrenness we find our next purpose. Instead of dwelling on the emptiness you feel, use it to reach deeper and seek a deeper understanding and knowledge.
When my husband was killed, it was the first time in all of my life where I really felt abandoned by God. I asked a visiting priest to please pray for me, he's a hermit and only leaves his hermitage to help out in other churches for Mass. He said to me, not to fret that in this very empty, quiet and painful time, God was preparing me for the next purpose in my life. I am still not sure what that purpose is or where it will take me, but in the last few weeks I have been able to feel more comfort and solace and I know that I will once again understand.
In the barren times, it is not the time to cut bait and run, it is the time to cling more deeply and even be more open to seeking His guidance in sometimes the most unexpected places of ways.