I'm hoping I don't upset anyone by what I'm about to say, but as the lone male contributor to this thread, I'm intending the following as purely constructive advice which any and all make take or leave at their own discretion.
That said, I'd advise a moratorium on threads like this, as well as threads with titles like "why can't I find love," and "why do they all ignore me."
While I think there's something to be said for the kind of emotional awareness that it takes to bear your heart for all to see, I think that just posting a thread like this undermines your chances of generating the interest of male singles and could possibly make them wary of you in the future. While I'm not justifying the kind of apathy and indifference endemic on social media fora throughout the internet, many males will interpret a thread such as this as evidence of a tendency on the part of the OP to form attachments too easily.
As a melancholic man, the opposite temperament from Pope Francis (who I adore, so, this is not intended as a veiled shot at him but only a fair criticism of his style and lack of reserve), who is, I think a sanguine personality through and through, I'm someone who exercises a prudent reserve with respect to matters of the heart. To not do so is to reveal one's hand prematurely.
Prudence dictates the proper context of when, where and with whom I should lower my defenses and allow myself to become emotionally vulnerable, I try my utmost to guard against "casting pearls before swine," and discharging my emotions in the open, and for all to see. I do this in recognition of the fact that such a naked exposure could cost me in terms of future interaction, so, it's best to be coolheaded about these sorts of things, especially if you want to understand how the male brain works.
If you feel the need to pour out your sentiments in the future, I'd advise confining it in-house to the women's only forum, where it won't have the unintended side effect of generating negative attention.