I think that there is also the component of feeling old before my time in terms of having to have buried a spouse. While I get asked out occasionally, it hasn't been by anyone that I would be remotely interested in for the long run. My mom thinks that I am too picky, but I keep thinking that if I wouldn't want my daughter dating someone like the person asking me out, then why is it picky that I do not want to date someone like--well, I don't want to spell it out and seem "picky", but I there are certain things that I need. I am too old to change and I want someone comfortable enough in themselves that they do not feel the need to change for me or be consumed by the work and volunteer stuff I do for the military.
Lastly, and I am getting ahead of myself, far ahead, I might add, there is the issue of the last time another person saw me undressed for the first time, I had the body of a 27 year old. It is a little daunting to even think of that. I am 52 and I certainly do not have a 27 year old body any more. Laugh.
So, the little insecurities....am I the only one?