It has been a year since he decided I wasn't making him a priority in life & that 16 years together & 5 young kids weren't worth trying to fight for. I still can't tolerate him...don't want to talk to him or look at him. I communicate through emails & text. I constantly pray to give me the strength to move beyond this point, to find peace...& some days I think I have reached that point, or close to it. But then he comes to pick up the kids, drop something off & that feeling of pure disgust comes flooding back in. I know it isn't healthy & I know that even though I try my hardest to always talk good (or at least not negatively) about their dad, that I have to be sending off vibes. I tried to explain that we use to be best friends but that mom couldn't be dad's friend right now, that with time things might be different. But will it? Will I ever move past this point of loathing him? Someone give me hope
I hate it when my post, doesn,t so i'll try 2 remember what i wrote the first time. My story is very similar 2 urs. same number of children/yrs of marriage, but i never loathed him. i feel a deep sorrow bcuz i know one day he'll wake up and take responsibility and see it for what it was. That realization will b catastrophic and i wouldnmt wish that on my worst enemy. There will be nothing he can do but mourn. As for me, i, like Alice thot i'd drown in my tears. Then one morning I woke up and decided it was what it was and there was nothing I could do but move on. Success is the best revenge. i found things i hadn't been able 2 do & threw myself into them. in the process i made wonderful friends who reminded me that i am still an awesome person. don't think about him. find yourself and be happy.