I am so glad to see y'all posting again. I have avoided this room to avoid any new attacks. This is only the second time in my 59 years that I have been alone between Christmas and New Year's. I'm keeping a stiff upper lip and most of the time I am managing the silence. David's birthday is New Year's day. You would think that after 6 years, I wouldn't even think about it. If I were single because of divorce, I suppose New Year's Day would be different for me and truly I am not sure what it does mean now. I no longer wear my wedding ring and I have accepted the fact that I am single. What a shock that was. Oddly enough it took me 4 years before I wrapped my head around that one. I, too, pray to David and am thankful that he is praying for me and our children. But I am also very hopeful that one New Year's Eve in the future I will be dancing with a new love of my life.
The pain that we, both widows and widowers alike, feel is wrapped up in so many emotions. It can be a private anguish of mixed up feelings. I am thankful that I am able to read your stories and be comforted by the knowledge that I am, at least, semi-normal. And, my heart is mindful of the difficult road we walk. I am praying with you all that we can find the peace and the joy God surely has in mind for each of us. And, I am thankful for the private messages some of us have shared since the last postings that caused us to be wary of posting in this room.
PS So far, so good. no new attacks. maybe we can keep posting.
There is definitely an understanding in this club we didn't ask to be a part of. I will be praying for you on Tuesday, Elizabeth. Do you do anything special to commemorate the day? My husband's birthday is Jan. 7th. Although easier, it still causes me to pause and think of him.