(quote) Ray-566531 said: Bernard -- Unfortunately we can't be sure what really happened here. It could have occurred accidentally under the most innocent circumstances. We simply don't know.
It took a long time for me to get used to receiving the host in my hand, but I kept thinking historically how the Eucharist was administered in the early days. Beginning with the Last Supper, the Body of Christ was taken by hand. This actually was the accepted practice for about a thousand years.
The Eucharist can be received reverently either way, and it's up to the individual to decide how to receive the host (as allowed in the US). Our Good Lord knows our intentions when receive Communion. For those who prefer to receive the host on the tongue, their decision is to be respected, even though the number of people receiving it this way are in the minority. By the same token, receiving the Eucharist (in either form) is commendable, provided the recipient has met the requirements for validly receiving the sacrament.
I know you are gone Ray, but I felt drawn in by this comment you posted; so it's a bit weird for me to think you won't have a chance to receive my "thank you" for it.
I want to echo your words, but in my case I have yet to receive the Eucharist in the hand. I just can't bring myself to do it, and I have tried, if for no other reason but to fit in with all the rest. Yet, to this day, I can't do it.
You see, at a very early age, probably 7 or 8 it was explained to me that Jesus is present in every particle, every molecule, every atom of the Host, after consecration. Not only is he present there, but each atom contains Jesus completely. It was also emphasized to me, that we should always show the utmost reverence and care in the way we prepare and the way we receive the Holy Eucharist. So, when deeply understood, at an early age, I was always aware to imagine the best means by which not one particle was lost and then inadvertently misplaced or, God forbid, intentionally desecrated.
So, with this clear knowledge, I cannot bring myself to think, that even in the most reverent of efforts on my part that I would risk misplacing even a single element of the species containing the full Body and Blood of Christ. I think of particles that would remain on my hands and I could not see them, but am aware they are very likely there. Me having an engineering background doesn't help either, but makes my awareness that much more acute.
However, I actually was determined once after I felt pretty much broken to do so (receive in the hand), just to fit in and prove to myself it was ok for me too. But as I approached, I actually fell to my knees, mouth wide open. I was more shocked than anyone else! That is what brought me back. Having been bbroken in the years just prior, after that I knew where God thought I belonged.
Adoration is one of the most efficacious means to accept God's will for fallen away Catholics. All one needs to do is just sit there, in His presence. Eventually there begins a conversation.