First a big hug and of course prayers for guidance. I don't know why life can seem so chaotic and overwhelming just before some big change in our lives, but it does. I guess its like growing pains or giving birth -- new paths always seem to be over grown and not easy to get to. . .until we get there. :-). I have no advice about the houses as houses have always seemed to be my bane :-). Although I love the house I have now. It is kind of odd, I'd never lived alone in my entire life until I bought this house after Pete was killed. And, I had really found that I loved living alone after I finally moved in and got used to it, just in time for kids to start coming back home lol. Two of my daughters and one grandbaby have moved back in. . .go figure :-).
Don't lose hope, try living in the present moment because the future is overwhelming.