Prayers for you Justin, although I am well aware that you have very physical needs. Perhaps my prayers wilI bring in God's grace to meet those needs.
I'm not sure how the spiritual realm operates. It's non of my business. But I will tell you, I appreciate your prayers. Thank You in Sincerity,
I once felt the same way, and still do at times. I remember giving plenty of time, talent, and treasure to a parish back in Atlanta, only to be disrespected by a small but significant group of people. To be fair, the vast majority of the congregation were and still are great, but there were just enough to get under my skin, through criticism, judgment, shame, fear, and again, disrespect. I even had two people actually tell me I still wasn't "Catholic enough", based on what I wore to Mass or which Mass I attended. It got to the point where I had to wonder if it really is the true Church.
But as was said in an earlier response, it easily could be the particular parish. I had this happen to me years ago with a parish group that accepted you just fine if you did everything they wanted from you. But if you said no to any of their requests, you were dropped like a rock and shunned. I ended up going to my grandmother's parish twenty minutes away (the original parish was two blocks away), and only participated in Mass and the Sacraments. I later went back to that original parish for a friend's funeral, and one of the deacons came to me and asked me why I left, saying that they "had plans for me." I'm pretty sure that my plans are solely between me and God, and don't involve someone else who thinks they know God's will.
Then I received an offer to move from Atlanta to South Carolina, and I felt it was God's way of taking me out of that bad situation (which really screwed me up) and put me somewhere better, at least for a while. My job here isn't permanent, but I've met some wonderful Catholics here who welcome me regardless of how I practice my faith. I still visit Atlanta frequently and intend to move back when my assignment ends, but I don't attend Mass at that former ATL parish any longer and choose from various other parishes instead.
So, again, it may very well be just that parish. As my good friend Abbie said, there are plenty of other parishes in the Atlanta area to choose from to find that right fit.
But I'll tell you, the thought of seeing if the grass is greener in other denominations does still occasionally cross my mind. My faith hasn't changed, but these bad experiences have unfortunately taken away much of my passion and zeal, except for supporting LifeTeen. Most of the time the kids are more mature than the adults.
Hope this helps. You're not alone.