One thing that I have found in my life is that Catholicism isn't a panacea for my problems. I thought that 20 years ago when I came into the faith. But, it is not. What it helps us to do is get closer to Jesus Christ. One of the things that has kept me in the faith is the Eucharist. Yes, I could leave and become a Protestant or something else. But, if I truly understand and believe that the bread and wine on the alter is turned into the Real Presence of Jesus' Body, Blood, Soul, and Divinity, then there is no where else to go. This is what Peter said in John 6 after Jesus said that to abide in him we must eat his flesh and drink his blood. All of Jesus' followers left after Jesus said this because they knew Jesus was not speaking metaphorically. Then Jesus asked Peter if he wanted to go and Peter replied, to whom shall we go, you have the words of eternal life. I can share that this past weekend I went to our annual men's retreat and we had the most powerful Eucharistic Adoration session I have ever been to. There were about 70 or 80 men and all of us were blown away by Christ's presence, with probably 4-6 men sobbing uncontrollably. It was unbelievable.
This a longer story than I can write now, but Christianity is not about giving your life to Christ and then everything is wonderful. It is about uniting ourselves to the cross of Christ. I would be more than happy to discuss this with you more if you would like. Feel free to send me a private email if you don't want to respond in the forums. But, don't give into your despair. I can share that Jesus will get us through whatever difficulties we have. God Bless,