"I am home in Heaven, dear ones:
Oh, so happy and so bright!
There is perfect joy and beauty
In this Everlasting Light.
All the pain and grief are over!
Every restless yearning past;
I am now at peace forever,
Safely Home in Heaven at last.
Dear one, do not grieve so sorely,
For I love you dearly still;
Try to look beyond earths shadows,
Pray to trust Our Fathers Will.
When your work is completed,
He will gently call you Home;
Oh! the rapture of that meeting!
Oh, the joy to see you come." - Unknown
He also gave me a priceless, selfless gift...he said he was the luckiest man in the world to have married me and he said he wanted me and the kids to go on living and loving, to never be 'mad at God' for not healing him, because we don't see the big picture, but must trust that the Lord's Plan is best.
He gave me permission and his blessing to find love again because he didn't want me to be alone. Paul said men would be beating down the doors for a chance to win my heart. Well, so far, no doors are being broken down, just a few taps here and there. All in God's time, as Paul always said.
All five of my kids and their kids and spouses and my sister-in-law's family were at Mass this morning. When we took up the gifts and my pastor embraced me (he and Paul were very close) there wasn't a dry eye in the building. We all went to the cemetery, then back to my cabin for a cook out.
My door definitely has a lot of people constantly going in and out...but no one ever knocks! And that's just fine by me...all are welcome in this place. Just ask some of the folks who attended the 5th Annual CM Indy campout at my place this past October!
You are a true jewel, and Paul saw that. Others see or will see that too as they meet you and get to know you. I have had the pleasure and honor of doing just that - becoming your friend, sharing experiences and stories, bonding over laughs, bonfires, parties, games, baby cows, delicious breakfasts (!!) and yes, even tears. Your stories brought Paul to life in my mind - I only wish I could have known him during his time here on earth - he sounds like a wonderful faith-filled man who had his priorities straight. The love you two shared will always be precious - and some lucky man will one day show you once again how very worthy you are of that kind of selfless love.
In God's time, in His way, with His love!
I love you dearly, my friend. Remember, you are never alone.