According to my studies and experience with grief, the second year of the death is even more difficult to deal with than the first year.
May the Lord grant you His peace.
Prayers and hugs for all of you dear souls who've lost your other half.
Now I'll slink off back to the divorced forum 'cuz Y'all are making me cry... not in a bad way, but tears nonetheless.
I was listening to a song on the radio tonight--Amnesia. While the song is about a break up, I equate it to the wish that I once held about forgetting so that it wouldn't hurt so much. The problem with that thought is the good goes with the bad. Perhaps you can write your feelings, go on a mini retreat, surround yourself with loved ones if that helps, etc.
I stand with you.
I hope it gets easier for you to remember the fun times as well as the pain.