When I woke up this morning, I didn’t feel motivated to start my day.
I was tired of waking up by myself and felt the results of my day would be no different than the day before. I looked out the window to check the weather and saw something incredible: the morning sky was brilliant and filled with red, pink and gold tones as the sun rose from behind the trees and reflected its light on the clouds.
For that moment, life was good again and I felt refreshed.
I had stayed up way too late the night before and felt as if I was dragging my tired body from the breakfast table to the hallway mirror for one last check before getting in the car. As I took one final sip of my coffee and headed out the door, I remembered the cute little neighbor child next door who had smiled and waved at me yesterday afternoon. She didn’t know me very well, or how alone I was feeling, but she still had a sweet smile for me. For that moment, the world was a good place again and I felt like someone thought I mattered.
I tried to calm my frazzled, worried mind while I drove to my afternoon appointment. There was so much I needed to take care of and so many concerns. What did the future hold? Why did I have to go through all this alone?
As I sat at the intersection waiting for the red light to turn green, I looked up and saw a brilliant blue sky with white clouds that were so beautiful, they looked as though they’d been painted with a watercolor paint brush and for that moment, it was as if the world stood still and my heart was peaceful.
Just for that moment.
After dinner and dishes, I sat down to read the Bible. I opened to the Mass reading of the day and found this wonderful message from the 12th chapter of the Gospel of Luke:
Are not five sparrows sold for two small coins? Yet not one of them has escaped the notice of God. Even the hairs of your head have all been counted. Do not be afraid. You are worth more than many sparrows.
For that moment, I felt a welling-up of hope and peace that I would never be totally alone because God made me for himself. He has not forgotten about me.
Later that evening as I was locking up the house for the night, I dreaded the fact that I would be going to bed alone again. But just as I was turning the light out, the phone rang. It was my good friend who knew it was late, but just wanted to see how I was doing. For that moment, I felt loved.
Your life may be filled with trials, questions, and discontent, and comfort may be difficult to find. But don’t you see how God is trying to show you He loves you?
He hasn’t forgotten you!
It’s in these little moments that we hear the simple ways God speaks to us…”I created this sunrise for you to wake up to and enjoy! You’re not invisible to me, I see you when everyone else ignores you! Don’t worry about things, I will take care of you! You are precious to me and I will never forget you!”
These are God’s ways of blessing you in the midst of the cross you are carrying so you will know you are not alone. He walks beside you on the road to Calvary and He will never leave you.
I encourage you to take some time and reflect on the past few days to see if there were gifts God gave you that you missed.