When going through troubled times, many people complain that they cannot find God. It’s a unique experience that can be confusing. “If God loves me so much, where is He when I need Him the most?” Praying becomes a desolate experience and difficult to do.
God is, of course, present with you at every moment. Part of the reason you are having trouble finding Him is because there are too many obstructions in your way; doubt, worries, and attachments to things of this world that you need to let go of are all things that will get in the way.
St. Alphonsus Ligouri said, “If a crystal vase is filled with dirt, the sun cannot penetrate it. The light of God cannot illuminate a heart that is attached to the things of this world.” Identify those things that are filling your heart now and preventing God’s love and grace from filling your heart. Then, place it all at the foot of the cross and experience your Savior.
But you, when you pray, go into your inner room, close your door and pray to your Father who is in secret, and your Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you (Matthew 6:6).